We're due for an update, aren't we?
Sasha was here. He spent five weeks with us here in Tulsa, through Ukrainian Resource Center's Orphan Hosting Program. There is so much to say, I'm not sure where to start. I'm just going to be real: I knew Sasha was my child the first day I met him, in December in Ukraine. It was heart-wrenching to see him in the state he was in at the time, and even harder to be separated from him those next six months, knowing the turmoil he was in.
Say you give birth to a boy. You love him, nurture him, and guide him as he grows into a young man. Now take all those emotions you would have felt over the course of sixteen years and unleash them all at once. Sixteen years worth of love in each "I love you." Sixteen years worth of hugs in every hug. Sixteen years worth of hurts you've been unable to protect him from. It's horrifying and beautiful at the same time. This is a fierce kind of love I could have never imagined.
No matter what happens, Sasha will always be my child in my heart. We are processing paperwork to officially adopt him, as he wants to be here with his brothers and his new American family, but we know to take nothing for granted. We are praying that the right doors will open and that Sasha will finally be HOME for good.
