I am a blessed woman. What a unique and challenging experience it is to be Mom to five children with such a wide variety of personalities, abilities, past experiences, and perspectives on life. Sure it's hard. It's also rewarding beyond measure.
We are still doing fine, with the ups and downs, uncertainties, frustrations and joys that we have come to expect. This is a wild ride.
The wildest part of this ride right now is bonding with Alex. He's 16. Creating a mother-son bond with a 16 year old is a different experience than with a newborn, yet my maternal urges don't seem to know the difference. I want to rock and coddle Alex like I would a new baby. I am constantly aware of where he is and what he is doing. I find myself staring at him, studying his every feature and movement in awe, like I did with my biological babies. Maternal instincts are a powerful force! If Alex would let me, I'd cuddle and coo with him all day long. Of course, he's 16, and he doesn't have the same agenda! There are moments though when we honestly connect, and it is absolutely exhilarating.
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